Stephen Chbosky
Sam dropped me off. When she was too far away to see me, I started to cry again. Because she was my friend again. And that was enough for me.Collection: Cry
I just laid around in my bed, looking at the ceiling, and i smiled because it was a nice kind of quiet.Collection: Nice
Bridget who is crazy said that sometimes she thought about suicide when commercials come on during TV. She was sincere and this puzzled the guidance counselors.Collection: Suicide
So, tomorrow, I’m leaving. And I’m not going to let that happen again with anyone else. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is.Collection: Leaving
It's great that you can listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what about when someone doesn't need a shoulder? What if they need the arms or something like that? You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things.Collection: Love You
Have you ever done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don’t know why.Collection: Done
And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad.Collection: Facts
I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You’re alive. And you stand up and see the lights and the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song in that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear… we are infinite.Collection: Song
I'm only being cute here. I don't really mean it. I just wanted to make you smile.Collection: Cute
I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. And to not have to see a psychiatrist, who explains to me about being "passive aggressive.Collection: Way
I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn't try to sleep with someone even if they could have. I need to know these people exist.Collection: Life
there is this one photograph... that is just beautiful. it would be impossible to describe how beautiful it is, but i’ll try. if you listen to the song “asleep,” and you think about those pretty weather days that make you remember things, and you think about the prettiest eyes you’ve known, and you cry and the person holds you back, then i think you will see the photograph.Collection: Beautiful
And even if she says no, and really means yes, then quite frankly she's playing games and isn't worth the price of dinner.Collection: Mean
Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I’ve been watching cable television and eating jello.Collection: Sex
Asleep by the Smiths Vapour Trail by Ride Scarborough Fair by Simon & Garfunkel A Whiter Shade of Pale by Procol Harum Dear Prudence by the Beatles Gypsy by Suzanne Vega Nights in White Satin by the Moody Blues Daydream by Smashing Pumpkins Dusk by Genesis (before Phil Collins was even in the band!) MLK by U2 Blackbird by the Beatles Landslide by Fleetwood Mac Asleep by the Smiths (again!) -Charlie's mixtapeCollection: Night
She said that by introducing me to all these great things, Mary Elizabeth gained a “superior position” that she wouldn’t need if she was confident about herself. She also said that people who try to control situations all the time are afraid that if they don’t, nothing will work out the way they want.Collection: Work Out
I just listened to the music, and breathed in the day, and remembered things. Things like walking around the neighborhood and looking at the houses and the lawns and the colorful trees and having that be enough.Collection: House
And she says she wants to expose me to all these great things. And to tell you the truth, I don't really want to be exposed to all these great things if it means that I'll have to hear Mary Elizabeth talk about all the great things she exposed me to all the time. I don't understand that. I would give someone a record so they could love the record, not so they would always know that I gave it to them.Collection: Mean
Do you enjoy holidays with your family? I don't mean your mom and dad family, but your uncle and aunt and cousin family? Personally, I do. There are several reasons for this. First, I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other. Second, the fights are always the same.Collection: Mom
And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope they feel it's enough. I really do because they've made me happy. And I'm only one person.Collection: Music
To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything.Collection: Avoiding
I love Twinkies, and the reason I am saying that is because we are all supposed to think of reasons to live.Collection: Thinking
So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them.Collection: Where We Come
The outside lights were on, and it was snowing, and it looked like magic. Like we were somewhere else. Like we were someplace better.Collection: Light
I wonder what my speech would be.Collection: Would Be
He was the boy that made mix tapes with themes and hand-colored covers until the day he hit my sister and stopped crying.Collection: Boys
For me personally, as much as I don't understand my mom and dad and as much as I feel sorry for them sometimes, I can't help but love them very much.Collection: Mom
Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there.Collection: Thinking
Then, I turned around and walked to my room and closed my door and put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be.Collection: Doors
in the last month or so, i have read the great gatsby and a separate peace. i am starting to see a real trend in the kind of books bill gives me to read. and just like the tape of songs, it is amazing to hold each of them in the palm of my hand. they are all my favorites. all of them.Collection: Song
I have finished To Kill a Mockingbird. It is now my favorite book of all time, but then again, I always think that until I read another book.Collection: Book
And when she started becoming a “young lady,” and no one was allowed to look at her because she thought she was fat. And how she really wasn’t fat. And how she was actually very pretty. And how different her face looked when she realized boys thought she was pretty. And how different her face looked the first time she really liked a boy who was not on a poster on her wall. And how her face looked when she realized she was in love with that boy. I wondered how her face would look when she came out from behind those doors.Collection: Wall
As I was walking up the stairs to dad's old room, and I was looking at the photographs, I started thinking that there was a time when these weren't memories. That someone actually took the photograph, and the people in the photograph had just eaten lunch or something.Collection: Memories
When we were all getting ready to leave, I walked up to my grandfather and gave him a hug and kiss on the cheek. He wiped my lip print off with his palm and gave me a look. He doesn't like the boys in the family to touch him. But I'm very glad that I did it anyway in case he dies. I never got to do that with my Aunt Helen.Collection: Kissing
I was suddenly very aware of the fact it was me standing up in that tunnel with the wind over my face. Not caring if I saw downtown. Not even thinking about it. Because I was standing in the tunnel. And I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite.Collection: Caring
I just wish that God or my parents or Sam or my sister or someone would just tell me what's wrong with me. Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away.Collection: Parent
The movie itself was very interesting, but I didn't think it was very good because I didn't really feel different when it was over.Collection: Thinking
Sometimes, I think Bill forgets that I am sixteen. But I am very happy that he does.Collection: Thinking
The gift from my Secret Santa wasn't anything special. That makes me sad. I bet you anything that Mary Elizabeth is my Secret Santa because only she would give me socks.Collection: Giving
The fact that one of these ladies was my mom made me particularly sad because my mom is beautiful. And she’s always on a diet. Sometimes, my dad calls her beautiful, but she cannot hear him.Collection: Beautiful
They just knew. And I think that's all you can ever ask from a friend.Collection: Thinking
It’s much easier not to know things sometimes. And to have french fries with your mom be enough.Collection: Mom
But at one point, Craig was talking about something, and Sam turned to me and smiled. It was a movie smile in slow motion, and then everything was okay.Collection: Talking
It is important to say "sir" at these moments. And if they ever call you by your first-middle-last name, you better watch out. I'm telling you.Collection: Names
But Mary Elizabeth felt different. She kept saying it was an "articulate" film. So "articulate." And I guess it was. The thing is, I didn't know what it said even if it said it very well.Collection: Different
I'm not saying she was lying to me, but she just acted so different before I got to know her, and if she really isn't like what she was at the beginning, I wish she could have just said so.Collection: Lying
the juniors were acting different because they are now the seniors. They even had T-shirts made. I don't know who plans these things.Collection: Senior
Sam screamed the fun scream, and there it was. Downtown lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. Sam sat down and started laughing. Patrick started laughing. I started laughing. and in that moment, I swear we were infinite.Collection: Fun
I guess I'm pretty emotional.Collection: Emotional