Julie Anne Peters

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Cut the ending. Revise the script. The man of her dreams is a girl.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Girl
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Miracles don't happen. You make them happen. They're not wishes or dreams or candles on a cake. They're not impossible. Reality is real. It's totally and completely under my control.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Dream
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What's the point of living if you don't belong anywhere?
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Smurf
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Me? I had no dreams. No longings. Dreams only set you up for disappointment. Plus, you had to have a life to have dreams of a better life.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Dream
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Your failures and your faults, they stick with you. They glob into ugly, cancerous growths inside you and make you want to die.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Growth
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What can happen in a few minutes changes you forever.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Forever
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Sometimes I'd catch myself looking at my reflection in windows and wonder who I was. Where I was going. Then the image would change and it wouldn't be me, just some nebulous shadow person.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Reflection
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Girls scare me more than boys. Boys are cruel. Girls are mean.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Girl
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His eyes are like a telescope. I look into them and I'm transported across the universe to a world I've never been.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Eye
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...the man of my dreams is a girl.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Girl
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She responds by kissing me harder and longer and deeper. She loves me too. She's just afraid.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Kissing
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But I'm no hero. I had to keep my dirty little secret. The worst sin I committed was holding it in; letting the secret blacken me.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Dirty
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And it’s more. It’s about getting past that question of whats wrong with me, to knowing there’s nothing wrong, that you were born this way. You're a normal person and a beautiful person and you should be proud of who you are. You deserve to live and live with dignity and show people your pride.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Beautiful
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I close my eyes and black out the day. The exhaustion of living through it, surviving.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Eye
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Is that all I am? A friend?" "Of course not," I say. "I love you." "Am I the only one?" she asks. "Yes. Completely." First, last, and always.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Love You
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I have no intent. I have no reason to live, that's all. When I'm gone, I don't want to be remembered.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Gone
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...When I asked [my dad why the sky was blue] he said it was because God's a boy. If God were a girl, the sky would be pink. 'What about sunrise and sunset?' I'd asked. Dad had looked dumbfounded. 'You kids. You think too much.' It frightened me how shallow the gene pool was that Liam and I were wading in.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Girl
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Who will see you through the darkness? "Me," I key in the answer. "I'll find my own way.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Keys
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Stop trying to save me. You couldn't then; you can't now.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Trying
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But she never just accepted me for the way I was.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Way
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What did she see in me? What does she see that I don't?
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Doe
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Yet, when we talked, when we were together, she seemed so familiar. Seemed to know who I was, where I was coming from. She knew me better than I knew myself, I think. She was easy to be with. And I wanted to be with her, like all the time.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Thinking
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What was I afraid of, exactly? What other people would think? I guess, a little. But that wasn't what was stopping me from acting on my feelings. It was the intensity of them. The desire for her. I knew if I gave into it, I'd have to surrender myself completely. I'd lose all control. Everything I knew, everything I was, the walls I'd built up to protect myself all these years would come crashing down. I might get lost in the rubble. Yet, she made me feel alive in a way I'd only ever imagined I could feel. Bells, whistles, music.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Wall
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People don't change. There are two kinds of people in the world: winners and losers. Black and white. I don't know where gray fits in, or if you can even live in that shade.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Black And White
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I don't sleep. All night long I'm wide awake, thinking, Secrets, secrets, secrets. There are secrets in my past no one needs to know. Secrets in my present that might kill Kim and Chip. I don't want to take my secrets with me when I go. When I pass through the light, i want to be free of everything and everyone.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Sleep
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Do what, Kim? Lead a normal life? Too late. Way too late.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Too Late
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I think about my choice. Either outcome is bleak. If I stay and live through high school, go to college, get a job, what will ever change? This blackness inside will never go away. I don't make friends; I'll always be alone. If I go, at least there's hope of peace. Chance of a new and better life on the other side.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Jobs
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I got singled out. I don't know why. Why do people always target me? Is it because I'm short and they figure I can't fight back? They're right, I can't, but it's not because I'm vertically challenged.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Fighting
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There's no reason to speak. I have nothing to say.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Speak
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Who becomes you? No one. No one should become me. When I die, I don't want my body or soul inhabited. I wouldn't wish me on anyone.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Soul
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I throw him two bones: a smile and a nod. Both lies.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Lying
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My parents will be sad for a while, and they may even blame themselves, the way they do now. Eventually they'll come to peace with my decision. I hope they'll realize I'm finally at peace.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Decision
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I'm all she's got and if I don't make it this time . . ." You'll pass through the light. A ribbon of guilt twists my stomach. I'm all Kim and Chip have too. But the difference is, they'll be better off without me.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Light
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Never question the sanity of a woman who can render you defenseless with a look.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Looks
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She's still doing it, pushing me into situations I can't handle, making me cope. She knows I can't cope.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Pushing
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This is my vision-what I imagine I'll pass through on my way to the light. The blue sky, the clouds, the rays of light.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Clouds
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No one else knows I'm alive, which means they won't notice when I'm gone.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Mean
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Don't choose me. I'm not worth your time.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Worth Your Time
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This is my fault. Mine. Making her think I'd be here for her.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Thinking
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Take it as a token. Because tomorrow when I go, I want you to believe friends are possible.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Believe
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Sometimes I felt as if there were no tomorrows, that everything, my whole life, was crammed into one long day. A continuous stretch of meaningless time. Sometimes I even wished there was no tomorrow, if this was all I had to look forward to.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Long
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Our eyes met across the crowded room, like in the movies, except we didn't share a knowing smile and race into each other's arms. Instead I fell into the trash can.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Eye
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It was all about hate. There should be laws. We're there laws? Can you legislate against hatred?
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Hate
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That earns him a smack with my book bag. "Ow." He clutches his arm. "What do you have in there? Books?" A grin snakes across his face. "I like my women feisty." He adds, "I like my broken.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Book
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You still have," I looked at my watch, "twelve seconds to change your mind. Find someone else and save your reputation." One side of his lip cricked up. "I found you. I'll take my chances.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Found You
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How does he do it? Live. With the fear of death every day. I don't fear death as much as I fear the thought of living.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Doe
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What will I become? Because I won't be me any longer. That will be a relief. I dont want to be the helpless person I've always been.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Relief
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What I know is you can't go back. You can't press delete and re-key your life.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Keys
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J_Doe032692 wrote: I am not a thin person. However this does not give people the right to taunt me, calling me ugly and worthless, telling me to kill myself because no one will ever want me, or to make up songs about why I am so fat and how much food I eat. NO ONE, I repeat, NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO HURT ANOTHER HUMAN BEING THIS BADLY. My throat constricts. The neck brace feels as if it's shrinking and cutting off my esophagus. I reach up and cover the words with my hand and the web site dissolves. I want to go. Now.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Song
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How will you be remembered? As a loner and a loser.
- Julie Anne Peters
Collection: Loner