Denis Johnson

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All the modern verse plays, they're terrible; they're mostly about the poetry. It's more important that the play is first.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Poetry
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What's funny about Jesus' Son is that I never even wrote that book, I just wrote it down. I would tell these stories and people would say, You should write these things down.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Funny
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I didn't finish the stories until we went to the Philippines and I got malaria. I couldn't work and I didn't have any money, but I had seven stories. So I wrote three or four more.
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When I'm writing for Esquire, my conscious thought is, I'm not writing for American Scholar.
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You're under pressure when you produce facts. You're working with facts in journalism, but you're under all kinds of formal constraints; there are expectations.
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I think it's silly for anyone to think you could write under the influence, but if they'd like to think that, I'd like to keep the legend alive. Maybe I was under the influence when I wrote Jesus' Son and I just didn't know it.
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If you take a lie and allow your desire for the truth, you'll end up with some truth - not fact, but something that gets you closer to the truth. That's what we want. When we go to a play, we need to be assured that the experience we're having.
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I really enjoy writing novels. It's like the ocean. You can just build a boat and take off.
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I was probably 35 when I wrote the first story. The voice is kind of a mix in that it has a young voice, but it's also someone who's looking back. I like that kind of double vision.
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I'd met a woman and I got married, but the money ran out right away. I hadn't had a job for seven months, and it just came over me that I was never going to work again. It hit me.
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If you write fiction, you're by yourself. There are certain advantages to that in that you don't have to explain anything to anybody. But when you get in with others who share the loneliness of the whole enterprise, you're not lonely anymore.
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In the plays - that's where I go crazy. But my prose has a much lighter touch; it's not trying to thrill with language, just to be more truthful. I'm not concerned with the accuracy of anything. We don't get to the truth of anything with facts.
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All these weirdos, and me getting a little better every day right in the midst of them. I had never known, never even imagined for a heartbeat, that there might be a place for people like us.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: People
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I make the road. I draw the map. Nothing just happens to me...I'm the one happening.
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Collection: Maps
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The first kiss plummeted him down a hole and popped him out into a world he thought he could get along in—as if he’d been pulling hard the wrong way and was now turned around headed downstream.
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Collection: Kissing
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Sometimes what I wouldn't give to have us sitting in a bar again at 9:00 a.m. telling lies to one another, far from God.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Lying
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What could be lonelier than trying to communicate?
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Trying
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This life is but the childhood of our immortality.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Childhood
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This wasn't the sea of the inexorable horizon and smashing waves, not the sea of distance and violence, but the sea of the etenally leveling patience and wetness of water. Whether it comes to you in a storm or in a cup, it owns you--we are more water than dust. It is our origin and our destination.
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Collection: Distance
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When he was dry, he believed it was alcohol he needed, but when he had a few drinks in him, he knew it was something else, possibly a woman; and when he had it all -- cash, booze, and a wife -- he couldn't be distracted from the great emptiness that was always falling through him and never hit the ground.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Fall
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I really enjoy writing novels. Its like the ocean. You can just build a boat and take off.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Ocean
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After the film it was raining, a light steady rain. Ruthless neon on the wet streets like busted candy.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Rain
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How could I do it, how could a person go that low? And I understand your question, to which I reply, Are you kidding? That's nothing. I'd been much lower than that. And I expected to see myself do worse.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Lows
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I feel very privileged to hear how somebody used to run around stickin' people up and stealing cars, and now they're gettin' their life back together... I just love the stories. The stories of the fallen world, they excite us. That's the interesting stuff.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Running
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Write the unpublishable.. .and then publish it.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Writing
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We’d torn open our chests and shown our cowardly hearts, and you can never stay friends after something like that
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Collection: Heart
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Down the hall came the wife. She was glorious, burning. She didn't know yet that her husband was dead. We knew. That's what gave her such power over us. The doctor took her into a room with a desk at the end of the hall, and from under the closed door a slab of brilliance radiated as if, by some stupendous process, diamonds were being incinerated in there. What a pair of lungs! She shrieked as I imagined an eagle would shriek. It felt wonderful to be alive to hear it! I've gone looking for that feeling everywhere.
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Collection: Husband
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And with each step my heart broke for the person I would never find, the person who'd love me. And then I would remember I had a wife at home who loved me, or later that my wife had left me and I was terrirfied, or again later that I had a beautiful alcoholic girlfriend who would make me happy forever. But every time I entered the place there were veiled faces promising everything and then clarifying quickly into the dull, the usual, looking up at me and making the same mistake.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Beautiful
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Talk into my bullet hole. Tell me I'm fine.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Bullets
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We can’t always tell the whole story about ourselves.
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Collection: Stories
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She had nothing in this world but her two hands and her crazy love for Jesus, who seemed, for his part, never to have heard of her.
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Collection: Jesus
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English words are like prisms. Empty, nothing inside, and still they make rainbows.
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Collection: Rainbow
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And therefore I looked down into the great pity of a person’s life on this earth. I don’t mean that we all end up dead, that’s not the great pity. I mean that he couldn’t tell me what he was dreaming, and I couldn’t tell him what was real.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Dream
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Everybody’s got a mean side. Just don’t feed it till it grows.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Mean
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When we were arguing on my twenty-fourth birthday, she left the kitchen, came back with a pistol, and fired it at me five times from right across the table. But she missed. It wasn't my life she was after. It was more. She wanted to eat my heart and be lost in the desert with what she'd done, she wanted to fall on her knees and give birth from it, she wanted to hurt me as only a child can be hurt by its mother.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Mother
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There was a part of her she hadn’t yet allowed to be born because it was too beautiful for this place
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Collection: Beautiful
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That world! These days it's all been erased and they've rolled it up like a scroll and put it away somewhere. Yes, I can touch it with my fingers. But where is it?
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Collection: Yes I Can
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We in Purgatory sing fondly of Hell.
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Collection: Hell
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Its always been my tendency to lie to doctors, as if good health consisted only of the ability to fool them.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Lying
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Memories assailed him of how gently she had spoken, touched, and moved; of how she'd loved him fiercely despite his mistakes and obsessions and weaknesses. And the conviction descended on him that love like theirs couldn't possibly suffer any change.
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Collection: Memories
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All his life Robert Grainier would remember vividly the burned valley at sundown, the most dreamlike business he’d ever witnessed waking—the brilliant pastels of the last light overhead, some clouds high and white, catching daylight from beyond the valley, others ribbed and gray and pink, the lowest of them rubbing the peaks of Bussard and Queen mountains; and beneath this wondrous sky the black valley, utterly still, the train moving through it making a great noise but unable to wake this dead world.
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Collection: Queens
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And you, you ridiculous people, you expect me to help you.
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Collection: People
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I'll never forget you. Your husband will beat you with an extension cord and the bus will pull away leaving you standing there in tears, but you were my mother.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Mother
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I'd been staying at the Holiday Inn with my girlfriend, honestly the most beautiful woman I'd ever known, for three days under a phony name, shooting heroin. We made love in the bed, ate steaks at the restaurant, shot up in the john, puked, cried, accused one another, begged of one another, forgave, promised, and carried one another to heaven.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Beautiful
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The traveling salesmen fed me pills that made the lining of my veins feel scraped out, my jaw ached... I knew every raindrop by its name, I sensed everything before it happened. Like I knew a certain oldsmobile would stop even before it slowed, and by the sweet voices of the family inside, I knew we'd have an accident in the rain. I didn't care. They said they'd take me all the way.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Sweet
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The abyss is full of reality, the abyss experiences itself, the abyss is alive.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Reality
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With each step my heart broke for the person I would never find, the person who'd love me.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Heart
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She wanted to eat my heart and be lost in the desert with what she'd done, she wanted to fall on her knees and give birth from it, she wanted to hurt me as only a child can be hurt by its mother.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Mother
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Will you believe me when I tell you there was kindness in his heart? His left hand didn't know what his right hand was doing. It was only that certain important connections had been burned through. If I opened up your head and ran a hot soldering iron around in your brain, I might turn you into someone like that.
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Kindness
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I hate two kinds of sentences you hear in workshops, the ones beginning "I really like ..." and the ones beginning "My problem with this poem is ..."
- Denis Johnson
Collection: Hate