Being injured, coming back, playing a few games, trying to get your fitness back, getting injured again - you don't get a chance to prove what you can do.Collection: Fitness
The intensity of the Premier League is incredible. The levels of fitness you have to reach just to survive in it is absurd.Collection: Fitness
When you are injured - and injured for a while - it is hard. You have to go to the training ground and watch everyone go out to play.
Nothing goes through your head when you're playing except who you are playing against and what you can do to affect the game.
Sometimes it's been difficult to stay positive, especially after the injuries that I've had, which have been frustrating.
If you look at the top midfielders in the past for England, like Lampard, Gerrard, and Scholes, they were always on the scoresheet.
Sometimes when people play for their country, I think there is that little bit of fear and pressure.
I definitely wouldn't go somewhere just because I'm a homegrown player. I'd want to be wanted by a club.
I want to be wanted by Arsenal. I've grown up at Arsenal. I'm a homegrown player, and as long as Arsenal want me, then I'm happy.
Look at the best dribblers in the world, Lionel Messi and Andres Iniesta, and the ball seems to stick to their foot, so I can work on that when I am dribbling.
It doesn't 'hurt' me, hearing criticism from ex-players. It probably disappoints me a little bit more.
I'll take criticism. I know that's part and parcel of football. But when it's just reckless and aggressive, I don't listen.
I realise things aren't going to go my way every week. Of course they're not. But the main thing is to give your all and enjoy.
I'd say I was an attacking midfielder, and if you are going to be one of the best, you have to score goals and create them.
I think every manager is the same. Three days before the Premier League starts, every manager is selfish that way. They want the players fit and ready.
If I went to Spain and lived there for five years, I'm not going to play for Spain. For me an English player should play for England, really.
It's impossible for one player to play the whole year. I've learnt that myself, and you're always bound to get injuries.
To spend 17 months on the sidelines is tough for anyone, and it's hard to see everyone go out training and then to go and watch games at the Emirates Stadium.
Of course there's going to be expectations when you're playing well in the national team. But you just have to deal with that.
It's a dream to play for England, so if I'm selected, I'd look forward to playing. But it's down to the powers above me.
When you go to the training ground day after day, there's times when you don't want to do it, especially when you see all the boys go out to training.